Frozen in Mid-Summer...

I find that there is one thing that hits me all the time: music. Sometimes it gives me shivers so intense that I literally shake in my seat. Today that song is "23" by Jimmy Eat World.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0MLWzTKVg_E&feature=related

I think this song hits me partially because of memories I have, but also because of where I am in my life. The lyrics are as follows:

{I thought for sure last night, that once we said goodbye, no one else will know these lonely dreams. No one else will know that part of me. I'm still driving away, and I'm sorry every day. I won't always love these selfish things. I won't always live, not stopping.

It was my turn to decide, I knew this was our time. No one else will have me like you do No one else will have me, only you. You'll sit alone forever, if you wait for the right time. What are you hoping for? I'm here, and now, I'm ready. Holding on tight, don't give away the end. The one thing that stays mine...

Amazing still it seems, I'll be 23. I won't always love what I'll never have. I won't always live in my regrets. You'll sit alone forever, if you wait for the right time. What are you hoping for? I'm here and now I'm ready. Holding on tight, don't give away the end. The one thing that stays mine...

You'll sit alone forever, if you wait for the right time. What are you hoping for? I'm here and now I'm ready. Holding on tight, don't give away the end. The one thing that stays mine...

You'll sit alone forever, if you wait for the right time. What are you hoping for? I'm here and now I'm ready. Holding on tight, don't give away the end. The one thing that stays mine...}

I look upon where I've been, and I find that these words speak forth so many of my emotions. My feelings of selfishness and regret, impatience and loneliness. Amazing still it seems, I am 23... I won't always love what I'll never have, I won't always live in my regrets. Today I feel hopeless. Like I will always be 23 and living in my dad's basement. No place of my own, no place to have, my selfish dreams. When I do dream, I don't see them as all selfish, but there are things that I want for myself. I'll sit alone forever, if I wait for the right time... I want to know what I'm hoping for.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9GvE-VeGMKs&feature=related

~KL~